Have you ever heard that you can figure out who your true friends are at a time of need? All you need to do is see who is actually there for you when you need them the most.

Funny thing about that thought. Amazing how wrong I was when it came to my friends. No, it's not like I had no one to turn to (thank god), but I was surprised at those who weren't there for me. Especially since the few that weren't there, were the ones I had thought would be the first to be there for me. Oh how I was wrong. That fact doesn't help my case. It hurts. It's adding more pain to what's going on in my life at the moment. I know, I shouldn't think about them anymore, but it's not that easy to just forget, to just let it slide.

Life just ain't fair... and it totally sucks at the moment.

Wow, the last time I wrote in here was my birthday. Been a while, hasn't it? To sum things up, first semester is over on Monday, I'm going to India on Wednesday, I'm homesick, and life's been... interesting, to say the least. Now if you were wanting me to go into detail, well, sorry, tough luck.

I see no changes, wake up in the morning and ask myself: Is life worth living?

Maybe I allowed myself to get consumed? If only I could take it back to the days I was younger. I want to feel like I used to, like myself, not this person I am right now.

it's my bday... weee

 hahaha

"it's" not worth it anymore.

i give up.

have a nice life.